What propelled me into my second Fourth Step was unbearable resentment. I knew
I was an alcoholic of the hopeless variety; I understood that I needed to defend
myself against the first drink. I had been without a drink for seven years, was
grateful for the program of Alcoholics Anonymous, and so on. But I was angry at my
wife, my situation in life, my cats, and the rest of the world. Prayer wasn’t relieving
me, meetings weren’t relieving me; I needed to take a look at myself.
On Saturday, January 13, I’ll talk about what happened when I finally did a truly
searching and fearless moral inventory.
On Saturday, January 13, I will speak on Step 5 and the exact nature of my wrongs.
My selfishness and self-centeredness afflicted me with a form of blindness. This
blindness caused much of my world and the people in it to be invisible to me. The
Twelve and Twelve reminds us that: “Most of us must admit that we have loved but
a few; that we have been quite indifferent to the many…” I am guilty of this
indifference. Saturday I will share examples of this blindness/indifference and how
it still plays out in my life.