Step 1 suggests — very strongly! — that I admit my powerlessness over my main problem (in my case, alcoholism), as the “firm bedrock” upon which my recovery is to be built.
When I came into the program, I was encouraged to admit complete defeat where alcohol was concerned. And in working the Steps on problems other than alcohol, an admission of powerlessness was also very strongly recommended.
How, I wondered, was this supposed to work? How was utter weakness and total defeat supposed to turn into victory over my compulsion and mental obsession? When we get together on Saturday, October 8, I’ll share my experience of this process, and how it transformed my understanding of power, defeat, and victory.
My focus this month will be on Step 1 and my unmanageable life.
When I admitted that my life was unmanageable, I found some internal freedom. But it wasn't long after my admission of unmanageability that I started to take things back. Like my desire for power and control, my anger, and my resentment.
I never realized that when I took these things back I was setting myself up for suffering. Living with the desire to control everything through anger and resentment is not healthy and causes a lot of pain.
I’ll be sharing my experience with these issues on Saturday, October 8. Come join us on this journey.