Twenty-seven years ago, I admitted that my life was unmanageable, and that I was powerless over alcohol. So now that alcohol is not ruining my life, why do I still feel at times that my life is unmanageable?
Over the last 27 years, I’ve worked the program, and, as Bill W. says on page 63 of the Big Book — I’m paraphrasing — I have felt a new power flow in, and I have enjoyed some peace of mind. I have experienced the feeling of God being present and loving me just the way I am, and I have begun to lose my fear of today, tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.
But wait a minute; I’m not done yet! My fears are still driving my bus, and I resist facing them. I am realizing that fear-based thoughts are still affecting me in a way that’s robbing me of my joy in living, not to mention my serenity. By the Grace of God, and with a lot of help from my friends, I am working through some of my fears, and they no longer have the power to deflate me to my core.
I am learning how to befriend my fear-based thoughts by acknowledging them and not judging them as good or bad. To my surprise, this new way of thinking has created a much kinder person inside and out.
So on Saturday, October 17, I’m going to talk about how facing my fear-based thoughts has made life more manageable. I’m hoping that you walk away with something that makes living a little more enjoyable for you.